Respecting God's timing

I had a bout of the blues after I got off work this morning.  Yesterday it was one little thing, then another.  My lack of knowledge on this new job is hurting my self esteem and giving me the blues.  I had to go into my prayer closet and gird up on loins for support and reassurance from God.  I questioned myself if I did the right thing by stepping up to the plate and taking on this promotion in this heavily challenged department.  Then I came across that God equips those He sets the task out before to do.  God will not leave me or forsake me.  God's timing is perfect in His wisdom-not my timing.  God will give me no more than I can bear.  I was missing my Mom real bad.  I wanted to talk to her, really talk to her.  Again God's word came back to me that there is no sickness or disease or tears in heaven.  My heart rested on the fact that Moma is out of pain, disease free and living life beyond measure.  She doesn't want to come back to this stinking earth, she is feeling too good up there with God and family and I know in my heart of hearts, she loves me and is watching over me as I stumble through life.

So pity party is over.  I did some emotional eating damage this morning by eating hotdogs on white buns. And I had a bit of a reece peanut butter cup.  Can't do that anymore.  I will probably show a pound gain on the scale this week,but I am in it to win it, no matter what.  I am going to practice on some weight watcher recipes this weekend, work on organizing my back room so I can have a study and exercise area, purge junk I haven't touch since I moved here in August.  Throw all this old papers and stuff away, inventory my Mary Kay and get ready for my next big adventure!

Keep on keeping on

Almost done with this month, the first of 2012 and I know in my heart of hearts that I still have to kick it up a notch. I began a new position at work, lots more responsibility, different work hours and I know I am definitely out of my comfort zone. Change brings forth progress and sure I want to run and hide and stay within my comfort zone. No, I can't because the pain of remaining the same, stuck in the same rut, doing the same thing became too uncomfortable. I have to break out of my comfort shell, do some possibility thinking and get up and move my duff more! Glory. I am keep on keeping on, stumbling and fumbling at this thing called life and learning to live my best life out loud!

Getting my praise on

I am trying to give this blog its due attention this year. Normally I blog everyday on my Sparkpeople.com page-it has been my lifesaver for the past three years, especially dealing with the loss of my Mom in 2009 and having to uproot myself for my job that same year and move to KC. Life is a journey and what we make of it. I am going to live my best life. I need to take some updated photos of myself, especially since I treated myself to a keratin treatment for Christmas. I am amazed at my my natural hair growth, not giving myself much credit. I have gained some length and I am happy with it, so far.

My weight loss battle stalled for this past week. I am strengthening up my support team, I attend weekly Weight Watcher meetings, even got my girlfriend to drive across town to sign up for a meeting with me. I know I won't see her again because she hates leaving her side of town, doesn't like all that driving. Oh well, life goes beyond my backyard and I can't limit myself to it. Hopefully I will convince her that if she wants to hang, we can do things over here on the Kansas side and I can come over there on the Missouri side. For the past two years, I have been going over there, no more. Time for a change.

I have to get use to working this new schedule, midnights. I seem to have more time to do stuff, but I get a bout of sleepiness around 4:15-4:20 AM and it drives me crazy. I am not doing much before work, forcing myself to stay in bed to at least 2:00pm. My poodles have seen to adjust, but then again they are just dogs. I just mess up my sleep pattern on the weekends, I am off now on Fridays and Saturdays. Yesterday was a prime example, I stayed up late and was too tired to get up for church, for Sunday will be my normal work day now. I ended up catching my former Pastor online for a right on time message. He was discussing fasting and prayer and how it opens doors for God's continued guidance, answers to life and His mercy in our lives. I have not been too great at fasting for the new year, but I am going to get on the good foot, get right and do what I need to do to get the job done. I know that God is going to do exceedingly abundantly great things right now in my life and I am open and receptive to heed His word and receive His blessings in my life today!

All these blogs, oh my!

How do I keep up with all blogs? I need an app just to help me organize them. New year, fresh perspective. I discovered in he last quarter of 2011 that carbs and I are really not good friends. I also discovered that I have to kick it up a notch, do cardio, sweat, sweat, sweat. I turn 50 this April and that is exactly what I plan to do, sweat more, tone and begin to shape. Out with the old and in with the new!